Strengths and Possible Red Flags - Part 2
When something happens that shakes her sense of
security, Francesca tends to panic. She worries and has difficulties focusing
on much else. What helps her manage her anxiety is talking about what is
happening with someone who is “safe” to her. She can insistent, even pushy in
her demands, as she was with Paul.
Paul, on the other hand, tends to withdraw and use avoidance.
He sees Francesca as emotionally fragile, and uses this as a reason for not
sharing. She will just get upset, she will worry, he tells himself, thus
justifying his silence. He seems to be using alcohol as another means of
avoiding the issues and the feelings, at least temporarily.
The more Francesca pushes, the more Paul withdraws.
The more he does, the more she pushes, in a dysfunctional cycle in which they
can stay stuck indefinitely. In this case, Paul’s new job stopped the cycle at
this point, even though it did not resolve the underlying issues. But this
temporary reprieve does not stop these dynamics from reoccurring in the future.
So, how are these two different styles affecting
their relationship?
One of the main contributions that close emotional
relationships provide for each of us is affect
regulation. This is the ability to calm each other down by providing
comfort, reassurance, support, emotional presence, and understanding. When we
are with someone who love us and is there for us, difficult and scary things
don’t look so difficult and scary any more. We feel we can cope with them,
because our emotions are kept in check by someone else’s calm presence and
don’t overwhelm us.
When Francesca heard Paul had lost his job, she was
scared. Her anxiety level got very high. She was looking for comfort,
reassurance, support. As she said, Paul had previously been her rock. She was
looking for him to take this role again with her. She needed him to talk to her
in order to reassure her that he was ok, and everything would be ok for her as
well. Because he did not respond, Francesca felt all alone in trying to cope
with her emotions.
Talking to Francesca, on the other hand, was not what
Paul felt he needed. He wanted to shut everything down, to distract himself, to
avoid what was creating problems. He may have felt shame for losing his job,
maybe was afraid of disappointing Francesca. He had mentioned in a previous log
that buying a house had been challenging for him. Now we learn that he already
knew back then that his job was going to end soon. This was the time, before
their wedding, when Paul felt ignored by Francesca because she was so totally
absorbed in the upcoming wedding. Perhaps he felt abandoned by her then as she
felt abandoned by him now? Was this why he did not talk to her about what was
going on with his job? Are there other things he kept from Francesca? Keeping
secrets is seldom healthy and sets the stage for continuing down this road. In
fact, Paul is keeping another secret: that his job is temporary, not permanent.
It is a slippery slope, and a potentially dangerous one.
In one of the first blogs, Francesca had bragged
about the equality and the openness of their relationship: the shared
everything; they were equal. And yet here Paul is acting as a parent toward
Francesca, whom he sees as a child who needs to be shielded and protected. At
the same time, Francesca sees her role as changing as well: she too sees
herself as becoming the parent in the relationship, worrying about money matters
and having to be strong to support Paul at this juncture. Let’s not forget
Francesca’s father’s opinion of Paul as being not responsible. Even though
consciously Francesca is adamant to prove her dad wrong, his opinion can be a
nagging thought that can insinuate itself in Francesca’s unconscious views of
Paul. She is angry at him for not being the rock he once was, whereas Paul is
angry at Francesca for being insistent and pushing him to talk when he does not
want to.
This situation, if not corrected, could change some
of the dynamics in Francesca and Paul’s relationship, and create more
challenges for them in the future.